How Will I Know?

I keep a playlist called "Brand New Shit" in my iPod at all times. Simply put, it's where I download my freshest new tracks to listen to.

Naturally, certain songs become the soundtrack to certain times in our lives, and the songs in "Brand New Shit" are no exception. Consider this:

When I first starting seeing my ex, I had just downloaded a dance remix of Whitney Houston's "How Will I Know" (...if he really loves me?). There couldn't have been a better indication of what was to come. I listened to that song smiling like a dumbass on my way to the airport for our trip to Mexico, thinking about how excited I was for this relationship. Then, during the last week of our relationship, Whitney Houston flat-out died.

I'm not going to connect the dots for you, but that says it all. Or, rather, Whitney said it all: "Don't trust your feelings... love can be deceiving." I knew I was in love after a month of dating, but after 9 months of dating I still hadn't heard a peep on the topic from my ex. In this case, it was words (or a lack thereof) that spoke louder than actions, and it taught me that both are equally important.